1.28.2009

it's time

pictures of my desk at work





my coffee mug {which i usually use for tea with chris}

some CDs that i listen to throughout the day

the foot of the gnome that guards me and hangs out in my plants

my assortment of tea

my sticky note pad {plain yellow is so boring}

as some of you may already know, the doors of my company are being shut, and when this happens, i will be out of a job. i've written a little more about it here. but i wanted to post something on this blog, too.

i actually took these pictures quite some time ago—just random things on my desk—'cause i'm a geek that way. but now i am glad i did. it's a small way to record the time i've spent here—many, many hours.

this job is the shortest i've ever had—less than two years. it's not been my favorite job ever, but i have made some dear friends, and i will miss many things about this place. i had such a great little space with a great window view. right outside my window is an evergreen tree. the ground outside is level with my desktop, and this is where the window starts. so it's desk . . . window . . . ground—almost like i'm working outdoors. and in the winter, it feels like it, too. {the chilly temperatures i feel despite my little heater blowing full blast is something i will not miss.}

i have all kind of little creatures who come to visit almost daily outside. squirrels, robins, geese, even rabbits from time to time. it's just a joy to look out the window at this every now and then. i've had other jobs with my own office before, but i've never had a window spot, so this is something i will miss. i will post some more pictures of things i captured outside my window on another post.

i will also miss having tea breaks with my lovely friend, chris. she and i would meet every morning and every afternoon for tea. it was our time to talk about blogging or fashion or design or anything we wanted to. we enjoy it so much and still will for the next two months. but then, it's good bye. that makes me very sad.

i'll miss all my other buddies, too—like chip and zak and barbara and jen and joe and courtney and claire. it will be hard to say goodbye. but i am grateful for the time i had at this company. it served me well for the time i had it. i can not complain, as i know so many others are in the same boat or worse. it is where i started my blogs and spend much of my time after the work day is done to do blogging. i will certainly miss the fast, loaded-with-updated-software computer that i have the luxury to work on. hopefully my next job will have the same.

i just don't know where i will be next. my post on jorjah-b talks about this, but the path is unclear. i only know that i will be okay. i've made it sixteen years so far in the industry. whether i stay in it or not remains to be seen. but even if i don't, everything will be okay.

a very dear friend told me something very helpful yesterday when he found out i lost my job. he said this:

"it's a good thing that we are so much more than our jobs. our jobs might dry up, but as people and friends, we have to hope that we can flourish."

wow! what a thing to say to someone who just lost their job. you can't know what it meant to me. it helped me very much.

another dear friend sent me this bible verse:

"i will never leave you or forsake you."

i told her that i wept when i read it, because it meant so much to me—even in relation to other things in my life—not just the job loss.

i am doing okay today. yesterday i was not. but today i am. this is a scary time to be out of a job. and even if the economy were doing better, our situation is not. but i will be okay. i've been through a lot in my thirty-seven years. i watched my family struggle through many financial difficulties as a child, and we always came through and are still here to tell about it.

i have hope and peace today. this may wane a little from time to time, but i'm okay.

1.26.2009


mere
   adj.
       1. being nothing more than what is specified.
       2. considered apart from anything else.
       3. obsolete  pure; unadulterate.

   n.
       1. brit dialect or archaic  a lake [old english: sea, lake].


se•rene
   n.
       1. (usu. the serene) archaic  an expanse of clear sky or calm sea: 
            not a cloud obscured the deep serene.

1.23.2009


“truly there would be reason to go mad were it not for music.”

~tchaikovsky

1.19.2009

transparency


in the last few days, i have come to feel that perhaps i am a little too transparent in my blogs. i have always been a transparent sort of person—one of those people who wears her emotions on her sleeve. if i am excited and full of joy on the inside, it is apparent to those around me. if i am contemplative, people sense it. if i am not feeling well, it is written all over my demeanor. if i am sad or angry, people will say, "what's wrong?" or steer clear of me—depending on their personality. if i am just sort of neutral—no one emotion dominating my mood—then no one notices anything except maybe my physical attributes.

so, it is no surprise to me that i feel free to be transparent on my blogs—to let my emotions show, or even personal things about me. some would probably say this is wrong or dangerous. others might say, "go right ahead. what can it hurt?" i want to be able to show at least some of me, because i know that some people might draw inspiration or identify with something i say. but i also don't want anyone to use what i say and turn it around against me. so i have to be careful. and mostly, i just think that there are some things that should stay secretive and hidden. things i might tell only a very good friend. to be tactful, they should be left unsaid—at least publicly.

i'm not an extremely private person as i know some are. i don't mind sharing bits and pieces of my life with people, especially those i trust. i like to find ways to identify with people, and if i am never willing to share about myself, i think i can not gain as much from another. i think it is a two-way street.

i'm still learning that balance when it comes to the whole blogging thing. i like to be able to be transparent and let people see at least a little more than what meets the eye. it would get pretty boring after a while if we only ever looked at each other's exterior shells. but i would also like to learn discernment about what to say and what not to say.

what about you? what are your thoughts—especially those of you who also have blogs? is this something you grapple with too? if so, what have you realized or decided?

dissonance


dis•so•nance

n.
  1. a harsh, disagreeable combination of sounds; discord.
  2. lack of agreement, consistency, or harmony; conflict.
  3. music: a combination of tones contextually considered
    to suggest unrelieved tension and require resolution.

"tension is to be loved
when it is like a passing note
to a beautiful, beautiful chord."

{this is my favorite line in any song ever—
from a sixpence none the richer song.}

resolution


res•o•lu•tion

n.
  1. the state or quality of being resolute; firm determination.
  2. a resolving to do something.
  3. a course of action determined or decided on.
  4. formal statement of a decision or expression of opinion
    put before or adopted by an assembly such as the u.s. congress.
  5. physics & chemistry: the act or process of separating
    or reducing something into its constituent parts.
  6. the fineness of detail that can be distinguished in an image,
    as on a video display terminal.
  7. medicine: the subsiding or termination of an abnormal
    condition, such as a fever or an inflammation.
  8. law: a court decision.
    a. an explanation, as of a problem or puzzle; a solution.
    b. The part of a literary work in which the complications
    of the plot are resolved or simplified.
  9. music:
    a. the progression of a dissonant tone or chord
    to a consonant tone or chord.
    b. the tone or chord to which such a progression is made.

1.18.2009

please, dear God, pursue me.
please remind me of your deep love for me.

everything i own {by david gates}

you sheltered me from harm.
kept me warm, kept me warm
you gave my life to me
set me free, set me free
the finest years i ever knew
were all the years i had with you

i would give anything i own,
give up me life, my heart, my home.
i would give everything i own,
just to have you back again.

you taught me how to love,
what it's of, what it's of.
you never said too much,
but still you showed the way,
and i knew from watching you.
nobody else could ever know
the part of me that can't let go.

i would give anything i own,
give up me life, my heart, my home.
i would give everything i own
just to have you back again.

is there someone you know,
you're loving them so,
but taking them all for granted.
you may lose them one day,
someone takes them away,
and they don't hear the words you long to say

i would give anything i own,
give up me life, my heart, my home.
i would give everything i own
just to have you back again.

{i just learned tonight from my husband that david gates wrote this after his father died. i had previously thought it was written about a past romantic love. hearing that one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite groups was written for a father was so cool. i identify with every word. i have even said almost the same words out loud many times... "i would give anything to just have one conversation with him again." today was a day that i really longed to talk to him. this was really great to learn on this day.}

1.17.2009

trip to the lake

when i woke up today, it was gray outside as well as in my thoughts. it was one of those days where i woke up overwhelmingly missing my father and also overwhelmingly grieving about our difficulty in conceiving. i don't know why, but lately those two things go hand-in-hand for me. the only thing that i can think of is that no longer having my father around really makes me want children all the more. i think maybe everything makes more sense after the loss of a parent if you already have or are able to have your own offspring. and i think that it would mean to me that my father could "live on" through my children.

anyway, i took a picture of the gray sky, and posted it below. that was all i had for the day—or so i thought. i did not know the day would take such a nice turn and i would actually enjoy its grayness so much. or that even though the weather did not clear up, my outlook would.

it started with meeting a friend for coffee who i had not seen in twenty years. i went to high school with her, and we had recently found each other on facebook. elizabeth has one of the most clear and beautiful soprano voices that i have ever heard. we sang in the high school chorus together and we also performed in the same school talent show. she also grew to know my siblings through that talent show. we all admired her voice very much. but i remember her to be a very sweet and thoughtful person. and i was delighted to learn after twenty years that she had not changed. we had such a pleasant hour and a half of conversation and recalling things—as if no time had gone by, even after everything that has changed in our lives.

then, i returned home to gather my things and head off to lake forest where my husband's mother's aunt lives. she had asked around to see if any of her relatives wanted her good china, and no one else seemed to be takers, so the question fell to us. i readily accepted, as i have never owned a set of china. we did not register for china when we got married, but i was content not having any fancy dishes. but to have something that was handed down from family and was purchased by aunt jane's grandfather to entertain william jennings bryan was appealing. i wrote more about it at Jorjah-B if you are interested.

we had such a nice time visiting with aunt jane. i had met her twice before. but both times, i did not have a lot of opportunity to get to know her. so today was nice. boy, has this woman got spunk. i can only hope to be in her physical and mental condition when i am her age. it really was good to see her. she told us stories from her youth, and we caught up on everything in our lives as of recent. after loading up the car with several boxes of china, we said goodbye to aunt jane. i look forward to returning, as she has invited us again when the weather turns warmer.

all of this led up to the last part of the day—not the best part, but the best way to end it. since aunt jane lives in lake forest {right on lake michigan}, i was hoping to get over to the lake to take some pictures. i had worked for an architectural firm for over a year right out of college in lake forest, so i have been to lake forest beach many times—in the summer when i could swim and tan, of course. it was one of my favorite spots to be and definitely the nicest beach in all of chicagoland. this is where i had my favorite birthday party yet—when i turned 25. but i had not been there in years, so i wanted to drive over and see it as long as we were so close.

i knew it would be pretty in the winter with the snow. but i had no idea it would be quite so beautiful today. the water was the most beautiful shade of blue. and the gray skies made everything so soft with such a somber mood, but in a good way. it went with my pensive mood and it actually comforted me. as one approaches the lake from the road, they are up high on an almost bluff-like hill that looks out over the vast water. it is quite pretty. then, to get closer, you have to drive down a winding hill that takes you to a look out area much closer to the lake—where the beach sand is. only today, there was no sand to be found—only snow and lots of it. it was breathtaking.

when i got out of the car to take pictures, all i noticed was the most calming quiet—so different than the summer sounds of waves and beach goers all around. it wasn't just quieter than summer. it was void of any sound. it was almost eerie, but beautiful more than anything.

i trekked through the snow, sometimes in spots that were up past my knees. i was wearing my new boots that i got for christmas, but i did not care. i had to get closer. i had to get some pictures. i know my pictures don't do it justice, but you can take my word for it that it was one beautiful winter scene. and it was so peaceful—something i needed to sense today.

i forget to go to the beach in the winter, as it seems more like a summer thing to do. but after today, i will make more of a point of it. and next time i will plan for a very long walk along it. and i will listen. i'll hear nothing. but i will listen to the silence and enjoy the peace.

i hope you might find some peace yourself in the pictures i've posted.











this is a "question everything" day.
how appropriate that the skies are thick with gray.

1.16.2009


re•flec•tion

   n.
       1. the act of reflecting or the state of being reflected
       2. something, such as light, radiant heat, or an image, 
            that is reflected
       3. a. mental concentration; careful consideration
            b. a thought or an opinion resulting from such consideration
       4. an indirect expression of censure or discredit
       5. a manifestation or result
       6. anatomy
            a. the folding of a membrane from the wall of a cavity over an 
                 organ and back to the wall
            b. the folds so made

veiled

adj.
  1. covered with a veil
  2. concealed or disguised as with a veil
  3. (of a comment or a remark) presented in a disguised form

1.15.2009

some thoughts about affection from c. s. lewis

i picked up the four loves by c. s. lewis to read a little before bed—reading sometimes helps me fall asleep more quickly. i've read a lot of it before, and i really wanted to re-read some of the things that i recalled from it. this is the paragraph i was looking for in particular. it's from the chapter titled "affection".

"'dogs and cats should always be brought up together,' said someone, 'it broadens their minds so.' affection broadens ours; of all natural loves it is the most catholic, the least finical, the broadest. the people with whom you are thrown together in the family, the college, the mess, the ship, the religious house, are from this point of view a wider circle than the friends, however numerous, whom you have made for yourself in the outer world. by having a great many friends i do not prove that i have a wide appreciation of human excellence. you might as well say i prove the width of my literary taste by being able to enjoy all the books in my own study. the answer is the same in both cases -- 'you chose those books. you chose those friends. of course they suit you.' the truly wide taste in reading is that which enables a man to find something for his needs on the sixpenny tray outside any secondhand bookshop. the truly wide taste in humanity will similarly find something to appreciate in the cross-section of humanity whom one has to meet every day. in my experience it is affection that creates this taste, teaching us first to notice, then to endure, then to smile at, then to enjoy, and finally to appreciate, the people who 'happen to be there.' made for us? thank God, no. they are themselves, odder than you could have believed and worth far more than we guessed."

this is a good book -- a very interesting look at affection, friendship, eros and charity. if you've not read it yet, i recommend it.

1.14.2009

smiling at the thought of you

smiling at the thought of you—
like smiling at the thought of blue—
blue of sky on clear fall days.
it's chasing winter greys away.

1.13.2009

i've hit the winter wall


it's official.  i've reached that inevitable point that i do every year right around this time.  usually, though, it's not for another few weeks.  but every year, some time in january, i get the winter blues.  snow and cold don't bother me for the first month or two {depending on when it starts}, and it's easy to enjoy with things like the holidays to look forward to.

but this year, i was feeling it a little early.  we have had a pretty rough winter so far weather-wise.  it's not that we have had any one storm that was so terrible, but we have had significant snowfalls, ice-storms, cold spells and weather-related road conditions what seems like every other day or even daily since before Thanksgiving.

i was using words like "magical" when referring to the snow.  and i really did feel that way.  but after last night {see what happened here}, i'm done.  i'm ready for the warm weather.  or at least a vacation—and that's not gonna happen, unfortunately.



last time i went on vacation and was somewhere warm during the cold chicago winter, this was my view the entire time.  i would give anything to go there again right now—with only the essentials.  one of my books, a chair, just my swimming suit and a towel, my flip-flops, a snack and a bottle of water.  that's it.  that's all i need.  i'm ready this very minute.  summer, sweet summer, how i miss you.

1.12.2009

mrs. ed


i received some very sad news today—when i opened my e-mail account after work, there was an e-mail waiting for me from the college i attended about the passing of a dear woman named mrs. alice thompson. she was my college voice coach. strangely, i had posted about her on this blog the very day she died—saturday, january 10, 2009. in my post {below} i had referred to her as mrs. ed—this is what everyone called her.

this is strange, because i did not even know that alice was sick. i knew she had grown quite a bit older since my time at college, and that her husband had passed a few years back after fighting an illness. but i did not know the health or state of mrs. ed—only that she was still with us and missing her beloved, dr. ed (whose real name was ed thompson).

dr. ed was a very dear man. he was one of my favorite people in college. i had him as a professor for some classes, but i knew him best as my choir director all four years that i attended judson college. he was like no person i ever knew. he was a man of smaller stature, but had the tallest personality and spunk of anyone i’ve ever met! and his wife, alice was the same—in height and personality. everyone loved dr. ed and mrs. ed.

dr. ed had had a stroke shortly before i came to judson. so my first year getting to know him was getting to know a man who was getting to know himself again—trying to relearn how to use one side of his body the way he used to. mrs. ed was always right there beside him through all of that. although i did not know mrs. ed nearly as well as i knew dr. ed, they were like one. they thought alike, taught alike, rejoiced alike, cared alike and even sang alike—with the same enthusiasm. dr. ed was the vocal choir director. mrs. ed was the hand-bell choir director.

i had the pleasure of touring five countries in europe for a month with them both, along with the rest of the choir. oh, the stories i could tell about that trip and about them. but another time. let’s just say, it was one of the best months of my life.

i was very sad when dr. ed passed. my best memories of dr. ed are him standing in front of the choir during practice and getting so enthusiastic about the words we were learning in a song. he would give us these grand “pep” talks about how the words we were singing should not just be words that came out of our mouths, but should be words we felt in our hearts! he would talk about the word “joy” or “hallelujah” and he would say, “you should know this word, understand this word, live this word. it should be your middle name!” my best friend at the time and i would giggle. we had a friend in the tenor section who sat behind us that we liked to tease. we had a silly made up name for him—schtu black {inside joke}. after hearing dr. ed’s words, we began to call our tenor friend schtu joy hallelujah black.

i know this means nothing to someone reading it, but it means everything to me—the memories that were created in those choir practices, the choir tours, the voice lessons, the recitals, the concerts. they are among the best memories of my life. i remember sitting on the bus with dr. and mrs. ed on choir tours, and i still remember specific conversations. they were two outstanding, loving people who loved God and made it known in everything they did.

alice passed at about six in the evening. i posted just two hours later. it is strange that having never written about either of them before, i should happen to write a little bit about mrs. ed in my most recent post on the very day she left this earth to be with her Savior and reunite with her husband. i am so glad they will be together again to sing. a college friend wrote to me on facebook today and said she pictured dr. ed waiting for alice with open arms. dr. ed is still missed today. mrs. ed will be missed every bit as much. i am blessed and honored to have known them both. i know my college friends reading this will agree.

thank you for your service and giving heart, mrs. ed. thank you for teaching me about singing. thank you for letting angela sing a schubert song for me. thank you for letting us sing a mendelssohn duet for a recital even though i had already graduated. thank you for who you were. i look forward to seeing you again some day.

1.10.2009

schubert



did you know that schubert wrote over 600 songs? he was like the paul mccartney of his day. he happens to be one of my favorite composers—in my top three. i have an old book. it is a biography of schubert. i think i picked it up at a garage sale, or maybe it was at my college library when they were getting rid of older, less-read books to make room for the new ones. either way, i got a good deal. i’m sure i only paid a quarter for it.

i started reading it a while back. i have not finished—not due to lack of interest or because he had an uninteresting life. only because i am not a disciplined reader. i’d rather sit and listen to his music. i also have another old book—this one was given to my father when he was a young man. the copyright is 1962, so i'm guessing he received it somewhere around that time. it is signed in the front, “to ken. from worldwide. for everything.” followed by several signatures, some of which are names that i recognize. i’m not sure what worldwide was, but i’m sure my mom will leave a comment and let me know.

i’m also pretty sure this book was given to my dad because he was such a lover of music—especially classical. i owe a great deal of my love for the genre to him. this book is part two of a two-volume set. it’s called milton cross’ encyclopedia of the great composers and their music. i don’t know what happened to volume 1. maybe he never had it. the one i have starts with mozart, as each chapter covers one composer alphabetically.

my other two favorite composers are in volume 1. but i am still happy to own the second book and have a shorter, more bite-sized morsel about the life and music of franz schubert. i wish i could put the whole text on here, but space and {probably} copyright laws would not permit. so i will just give you a few excerpts—enough to give you an idea of this musical genius and his work.

“the death of beethoven, in 1827, was a terrible blow. although it is unlikely that schubert ever came into personal contact with the master, he had from boyhood on worshiped him from a reverent distance. ‘who can ever hope to follow him?’ he once said after hearing a concert of beethoven’s music. beethoven was not altogether unaware of schubert’s existence. just before his death he went through some schubert songs which had been brought to his attention. ‘surely,’ he said, ‘there is a divine spark of genius in this schubert!’

but the giant was dead; and schubert mourned his death as he had mourned no other person. schubert carried one of the torches at beethoven’s funeral, and after beethoven had been buried, he proposed a toast at a nearby tavern to the one who would be the first among them to follow beethoven to the grave. from that moment on, he had one crowning ambition: to be buried next to beethoven.”

that was a little from the portion about his life. here is a little from what is written about his music.

“there is about a schubert work the radiant joy of creation. nothing betrays the pangs of birth pains, for the simple reason that those pains did not exist. we know the way schubert worked. his masterworks came all in one piece. he did not labor over details, or work out an idea or an effect fastidiously the way other composers did. he rarely revised. everything flowed naturally and without obstruction—not only his copious ideas and his warm sentiments, but even his frequently novel effects, his poignant modulations and striking transitions, an unexpected harmony, a breath-taking progression. he wrote only for his own delight and according to his own conscience; that delight shines in every page. he wrote easily and quickly; his best music has the ingratiating quality of spontaneity.

his music has what george eliot once described as ‘mighty youth.’ it has freshness, optimism, fullness of heart, buoyancy, vibrancy, sentimentality, excitement—qualities of youth. it has a kind of youthful charm that ingratiates itself coyly, bewitches the listener, seduces him. {no one can be more lovable than schubert.} it has a youthful kind of innocence about it, which does not depend for its effect on sophistication or passion.

his greatest gift was melody. the abundance of his lyricism, its incomparable beauty, its rich-textured poetry remain without parallel in music. he himself said that he no sooner got one idea on paper than several others started crowding into his consciousness. melodic ideas haunted him all the time, one more wonderful than the other. almost any kind of stimulus was enough to inspire a soaring lyric flight. in his songs and in the shorter piano pieces—which he could write in a single burst of inspiration with reliance on his unfailing melodic invention—he was the incomparable master.”

oh, to create art that effortlessly. i aspire to his carefree nature, especially after listening to some of his music.

i happen to have one great memory tied to a schubert song. this is something i will never forget as long as i live. my twin sister had gone to the same college i did, only shortly after i graduated. while there, she had the same voice teacher that i had, and she was required to give a voice recital at the end of the semester just the way i had to. when i learned that she was taking voice, i had recently become a great lover of schubert's music—especially his songs. i had just purchased a cd containing all schubert songs performed by mezzo-soprano, tamara takacs. my favorite song on the disc was number 5—du bist die ruh, which is german for “you are my joy”.

this song got me every time. it is that beautiful. when i learned that my sister, who is also a mezzo-soprano, would be giving a recital at the end of the semester, i practically begged her to ask her voice teacher if she could make this one of her song selections. she told me she would ask. after waiting several days, i asked her if she requested to sing that song, she told me that her teacher said no because it would be too difficult for her. i was so disappointed and a little bit miffed that the same teacher i had would judge her voice that harshly—to say she could not handle such a song. but i was mostly just disappointed that she would not be singing it and i could not live vicariously through her—you see, i had already graduated college by then. and even if i was still in college and voice class, i am an alto and would not be able to sing something in that range.

so, months passed and the day of the recital approached. i knew which songs my sister would be singing, as she had practiced the pieces in front of me many times. i was excited to go hear her sing two songs—neither of which were by schubert. what i had forgotten is, when in voice class for a semester with “mrs. ed” {as the teacher was affectionately known}, one learns several songs but only performs two or three for the recital at the end.

the day of the recital came, and my mom and dad and i went to hear my twin perform. there may have been others from my family who were there, but i do not recall. at the auditorium door, programs were handed out for the audience—there were to be at least ten other performers singing their own two songs that night. i sat down and poured over the program before it began. there it was. angela’s name and her two song choices. i believe one of the songs was i feel pretty from west side story. i do not recall what her other listed song was, but whatever it was, i had heard her practice it many times.

she sang her first song and was followed by some other students' performances. there was a short break, and then the recitals resumed. after the break, angela was to sing her next number. all song performances were accompanied by piano—the singer stood in front of a very grand piano. angela got up on stage to sing, and seemed a bit nervous. the piano began to play. it was a very familiar sound that sent me into the strangest sensation i have ever known. it was confusion mixed with joy and delight and completely overwhelming love and admiration for my sister. you see, the notes coming from the piano were of the introduction to du bist die ruh. by the time she began to sing, she could see the confusion and joy on my face, which made her so glad, because she had accomplished what she set out to—she surprised me! as she began to sing, i could hear a shakiness in her voice that would not have otherwise been there. i think we were both on the verge of tears. i’m pretty sure tears did form for me, actually.

the very best part of the whole thing is that she went to the trouble to have one single program made up specially for me. i was the only one in the audience whose program did not read du bist die ruh as her second recital piece. i was the only one in the audience who was not aware that she would be singing this for me. in fact, not only did they all have a clue what she was singing, but many of them were aware of the surprise that she had planned for me all semester. i don’t even know if she knows it to this day, but that is one of the closest and most special moments i have ever experienced with my twin sister. utter joy is what i feel when i think of that story. and how appropriate, given that the song title means "you are my joy".

now that i have finished this post, i am going to put in my cd and play number 5. and you can be sure i’ll be smiling as i listen.


won•der

n.

1.
a. one that arouses awe, astonishment,
surprise, or admiration; a marvel
b. the emotion aroused by something awe-inspiring,
astounding, or marvelous: gazed with wonder at the northern lights.

2.
an event inexplicable by the laws of nature; a miracle.

3.
a feeling of puzzlement or doubt.


v.

won•dered, won•der•ing, won•ders

v.intr.

1.
a. to have a feeling of awe or admiration; marvel
b. to have a feeling of surprise.

2.
to be filled with curiosity or doubt.

v.tr.

to feel curiosity or be in doubt about: wondered what happened.


adj.

1.
a. arousing awe or admiration.
b. wonderful.

2.
far superior to anything formerly recognized or foreseen.


{i was thinking about this word today. i like this last definition,
for i have found something that i would describe this way.}

1.09.2009

i don't have much to say today.
i'm still fighting this inner ear infection
and it is now part of my sinuses.
i have not slept well for a while
as a result either.
i've stayed home from work this week
more than I've gone in to work.
i usually kick the butt of something like this.
but this time it's kicking my butt.
i'm hoping to be myself again by monday.
sorry for the lackluster post.
i'm going to try to be good take a rest from blogs
{including mine} all weekend.
i think being sick is my body's way
of telling me to slow down.
so, i shall listen.
i'm wishing you all a great weekend.
stay healthy.

1.07.2009


now this is how it works
you peer inside yourself
you take the things you like
then try to love the things you took
and then you take that love you made
and stick it into some-
one else's heart
pumping someone else's blood
and walking arm in arm
you hope it don't get harmed
but even if it does
you'll just do it all again



from on the radio by regina spektor

{i just discovered this song, and i really do like it—especially this part.}

off to see the world


this is a picture of one wall in one room of my house. the antique hanging lantern from my husband's parents has such an old world feel that makes me think of travels—especially against the fabric that is hung on the wall. the fabric was purchased and hung by my husband, and its pattern reminds me of old maps.

so, this picture made me want to write about places i've been and places i want to go.

i've had the pleasure of being able to travel quite a lot in my years thus far. i've had the opportunity to visit over thirty of the fifty united states. i have traveled to nine countries. and i have stepped foot on two continents.

i've seen the grand canyon and the swiss alps. i've seen the clearest blues of the caribbean waters. i've seen some of the grandest structures that europe has to offer. i've driven among peaceful country with fields as far as the eye could see. i've tasted the rich foods of many rich lands.

but there are so many more places i want to see and experience. here are just some of the far off places i hope to visit in my life—some cities, some countries, some little towns, even an entire continent.

{in no particular order}
new zealand
mallorca
montana
wyoming
washington
se juan teneo
ireland
scotland
japan
prince edward island
africa {starting with south africa}
bora bora
israel
morocco
alaska {i'd like to go on an alaskan cruise}

where is it you want to go?

???

is anyone else having trouble uploading pictures to blogger?

1.06.2009

great friend

a great friend makes you feel as though they were looking for you
even before they had knowledge that you exist.

a great friend is one who would wish you to get well
before they've even learned what your favorite ethnic food is.

a great friend is one who can speak of spiritual matters with you
without even knowing where you went to college.

a great friend is one who can see right through to who you are
without having seen you face to face even once.

a great friend is one who can sense your needs
without having been told what you do for recreation.

a great friend is one who knows how to make you smile
without knowing yet what your favorite comedy is.

a great friend is one who knows what you see
without having glimpsed at the color of your eyes.

a great friend is one who gives you the gift of insight
before being told when your birthday is.

a great friend is one who gives you joy
without trying—without even knowing it.

a great friend is a great thing to have.

have you a great friend?
i hope so.
i do.

sun . . . set


we may not
be able to see
the same
sunset,

but we
get to see
the same
sun
set.

~angela heldman

{i know i said i was not going to post, but i was inspired to do a short one by a friend who made me think of these words that my sister wrote on a card she once made. it was for a friend who lived far away—in a different time zone. she painted a beautiful watercolor of a sunset and wrote these words on the cover as well. i'll never forget the card. it is one of the most beautiful i have ever seen. whoever got it was a lucky person. this is my version of the card to my friend.}

hello

just wanted to say hello to all my readers—old and new. you all have been so kind lately—with your comments and showing interest in my photo blog.

my normal routine is to daily visit your blogs and try to post on mine at least once.

today, i will not post any pictures, and no writing except to say this. i've been sick for a few days—i'm thinking it is an inner ear infection, but i am not sure.

know that i will return to visiting your blogs soon. it is not lack of interest, rather lack of feeling well enough. i miss the inspiration i draw from your blogs. i appreciate that you still visit mine, even when i have not been able to visit yours in a while!

hoping to be back in the swing of things soon!

~georgia

1.05.2009

groundhog day comes to woodstock, illinois



{i'm sorry this took me so long to post. i've been a little bit under the weather for the past two days and blogging from my computer at home is woefully slow.}

well, i'm pretty sure everyone guessed it right! yes, it's groundhog day—the movie that all of these buildings were part of the set of! good eye, all of you!

i grew up in woodstock. for a few months, my hometown became punxsutawney, pennsylvania—the setting of the film. what a great film this was! and a what a joy it was to watch it in the theater after having visited the set and meeting bill murray at the local grocery store where he would occasionally stop while living there temporarily. i worked at that grocery store at the time, and I was like a kid when he came in the store—starstruck, of course. i also saw harold ramis in there a couple of times. my sister got to meet andie macdowell at the video rental store.

i'm not certain, but i am pretty sure the building below was in the movie, too. {i know—i should know this. and i call myself a fan!}


at the time of the filming, i still lived with my parents on the outskirts of town. they would let us go into town to see the filming every now and then. we could never get too close to anything, but it was still fun.


after college, i moved out of the house and out of the town. but two years later, i moved back to woodstock, and i lived just one block from the house that was used (the exterior and view of the street from the top window) as the bed and breakfast where bill murray's character stayed while he was on assignment as a news anchor {pictured above}. this is the house i lived in {below}.


while i was living there, my husband {then boyfriend} was living on the square—where a good part of the filming took place—you know the famous scene where he jumps from the tower of the opera house. it was just down the street from my husbands apartment that was above one of the historic stores.


and then there is the famous gazebo. this is where the groundhog day ceremony in the movie took place. this is where my husband proposed to me on new year's eve of 1999—the eve of a new millennium. we found it only fitting that we should get married there, too. so we did.

we have some beautiful wedding shots of us standing on these stairs of the historic courthouse {below}. i would post them, but since i did not take them, they are not allowed on this blog. =)


i went to the square on saturday to meet my friend sandy {below} for coffee. she also happened to get married there. i thought i would get some pictures, as i do not live in woodstock anymore, and it would be fun for old-time's sake.


it is a great place to go in the winter—especially around christmas with the lights and the carriage rides on the cobblestone streets. it really is a quaint little place, even without the lure of the fact that bill murray stood there. =)


the square has been displaying this nativity scene {above} at christmas ever since i was a baby and before. it has been there every year of my life, and is still displayed today. {i won't tell you just how many years.}

=)

i hope you enjoyed. i'll probably post more pictures that i took last summer when groundhog day rolls around. it is pretty all year-round.

for a little more background info on the movie's film location, go here or here or here. for more fun facts about the movie in general, go here.