{a different self-portrait} i am...

i am...

not afraid.
thirty-eight.
a woman who still feels like a little girl.
longing to be a mother.
a friend.
a sister.
a daughter.
a wife.
a lover.
a christian.
a romantic.
a dreamer.
a crier.
an artist.
a twin.
the best three-legged race partner my twin will ever know.
in love with love.
a singer.
creative.
passionate.
imperfect.
a perfectionist.
type b personality {according to those test thingies }.
optimistic.
pessimistic.
weak.
strong.
silly a lot.
always cold.
a big fan of the beach.
a sun-lover.
an amateur.
immature.
holding on.
nostalgic.
a tea-drinker.
a night person.
wanting to be a morning person.
smart enough to get by.
a craver of learning.
a bird-lover.
a procrastinator.
not the best communicator.
a former television watcher.
a fan of m*a*s*h, monk and house.
a pack rat who craves simplicity.
a dark chocolate person.
very content after a good nap.
a collector.
changing.
a graphic designer.
very critical of myself.
a film buff.
soft-spoken.
green-eyed.
much different-looking than even just five years ago.
a believer in the "eat right for your blood type" theory.
full of regrets.
a college graduate.
a contradiction to myself in so many ways.
a starter.
not a finisher.
a wishful thinker.
a runner.
most at peace in autumn.
one who suffers from seasonal affective disorder.
a lover of good design.
good with spacial problems.
not who i thought i was.
told often that i am gentle.
an impatient driver.
not a book reader, but wishing i was.
one who thinks music is the greatest thing in life.
not many of the things that i used to be.
so many things that i have not been before.
a bit of a germ-a-phobe.
one who hates noise.
constantly changing my favorite color.
sensitive.
broken-hearted.
mended.
forgiven.
forgiving.
looking for purpose.
far too emotional for my own good.
an obvious donner of those emotions.
detail-oriented.
a photography-lover.
a production artist by day.
an amateur writer and photographer by night.
a connector.
one who loves touch.
not entrepreneurial.
a former shop-a-holic.
the kind of person who can live anywhere.
known to have a lead foot.
notorious for leaving long rambling messages.
loved.
wanted.
a taker-inner {or a sponge, so to speak }.
waiting for spring.
always looking for a photo.
sometimes sad.
often happy.
a fan of breakfast.
not a breakfast eater.
not too old to wear pig tails.
a big fan of sushi.
close to being debt-free.
not one who owns a scale.
finding it more difficult to remember things.
waiting for the day when i can wear glasses.
fearfully and wonderfully made.
a believer.
aware that i lack certain social skills.
spontaneous.
forever missing my father.
a bit of a worrier, but less than i used to be.
acrophobic.
tired of my bad habits.
a jack of all trades, master of none.
still deciding what i want to be when i grow up.
drawn to funny people.
hooked on ice cream and french fries.
a dancer. {not really, but i'd like to think so.}
waiting for something.
aware i have so much to learn.
not a technology geek.
more right-brained than left.
figuring things out.
the most organized and unorganized person i know.
lacking discipline in many areas.
hoping to age gracefully.
often wishing i could go back.
one who needs affirmation.
tired too often.
accepting of others.
critical of others, too.
not who i thought i would be by now.
resilient.
letting go.
praying small, quiet prayers.
not eloquent in speech.
not poised.
delicate.
decisive.
passive.
beginning to show my age most in my hands.
never compared to a celebrity like my friends are.
complicated.
{duh... i'm a female.}
waiting for some miracles.
done with this list.
{even though there's so much more...}