{a different self-portrait} i am...

i am not afraid

i am...

not afraid.
a woman who still feels like a little girl.
longing to be a mother.
a friend.
a sister.
a daughter.
a wife.
a lover.
a christian.
a romantic.
a dreamer.
a crier.
an artist.
a twin.
the best three-legged race partner my twin will ever know.
in love with love.
a singer.
a perfectionist.
type b personality {according to those test thingies }.
silly a lot.
always cold.
a big fan of the beach.
a sun-lover.
an amateur.
holding on.
a tea-drinker.
a night person.
wanting to be a morning person.
smart enough to get by.
a craver of learning.
a bird-lover.
a procrastinator.
not the best communicator.
a former television watcher.
a fan of m*a*s*h, monk and house.
a pack rat who craves simplicity.
a dark chocolate person.
very content after a good nap.
a collector.
a graphic designer.
very critical of myself.
a film buff.
much different-looking than even just five years ago.
a believer in the "eat right for your blood type" theory.
full of regrets.
a college graduate.
a contradiction to myself in so many ways.
a starter.
not a finisher.
a wishful thinker.
a runner.
most at peace in autumn.
one who suffers from seasonal affective disorder.
a lover of good design.
good with spacial problems.
not who i thought i was.
told often that i am gentle.
an impatient driver.
not a book reader, but wishing i was.
one who thinks music is the greatest thing in life.
not many of the things that i used to be.
so many things that i have not been before.
a bit of a germ-a-phobe.
one who hates noise.
constantly changing my favorite color.
looking for purpose.
far too emotional for my own good.
an obvious donner of those emotions.
a photography-lover.
a production artist by day.
an amateur writer and photographer by night.
a connector.
one who loves touch.
not entrepreneurial.
a former shop-a-holic.
the kind of person who can live anywhere.
known to have a lead foot.
notorious for leaving long rambling messages.
a taker-inner {or a sponge, so to speak }.
waiting for spring.
always looking for a photo.
sometimes sad.
often happy.
a fan of breakfast.
not a breakfast eater.
not too old to wear pig tails.
a big fan of sushi.
close to being debt-free.
not one who owns a scale.
finding it more difficult to remember things.
waiting for the day when i can wear glasses.
fearfully and wonderfully made.
a believer.
aware that i lack certain social skills.
forever missing my father.
a bit of a worrier, but less than i used to be.
tired of my bad habits.
a jack of all trades, master of none.
still deciding what i want to be when i grow up.
drawn to funny people.
hooked on ice cream and french fries.
a dancer. {not really, but i'd like to think so.}
waiting for something.
aware i have so much to learn.
not a technology geek.
more right-brained than left.
figuring things out.
the most organized and unorganized person i know.
lacking discipline in many areas.
hoping to age gracefully.
often wishing i could go back.
one who needs affirmation.
tired too often.
accepting of others.
critical of others, too.
not who i thought i would be by now.
letting go.
praying small, quiet prayers.
not eloquent in speech.
not poised.
beginning to show my age most in my hands.
never compared to a celebrity like my friends are.
{duh... i'm a female.}
waiting for some miracles.
done with this list.
{even though there's so much more...}


S. Etole said...

and you are ... wonderful!

red or gray black and white said...

i wish we could meet for french fries and ice cream...bravo.fabulous list ~ elk

georgia b. said...

me too, elk! and then we could enjoy some tea when we're done.

: )

thank you to you both.

Steve Gravano said...

I'm sure you're pretty fabulous person!

Hi Kooky said...

Oh, this is a great list! I loved reading all these qualities about you. (Some I'm definitely familiar with myself. No joke, I have a post in draft form waiting to be finished and it's all about the "jack of all trades master of nothing" topic...)

This is such a great list, and such a great idea. Your posts are so inspirational. Kudos to you for not being afraid to acknowledge and embrace all the contradictions that are inevitably there in all of us. :)

Heather said...

Great list! A celebration of a honest and beautiful person.

beth said...

wow....all those things rolled up into cute little you...and even though we only spent a day together, I saw many of those things :)

ginny said...

wow georgia,
i love your list and your honesty and the way you understand and embrace all aspects of yourself. i also relate to so much of your list though have never been brave enough to write anything down... so my positives and negatives just remain tucked away causing me many frustrations, even though i know that a good awareness and acceptance can help one move foreward.

sending you a heart to soothe too dear friend
ginny xx

Oliag said...

You are eloquent in speech here on your blog:)...A fantastic, revealing, touching list...In many ways we are alike...

from a night person who wishes she were a morning person:)

spread your wings said...

i like your list. beautifully complex and wonderful.

Toni said...

You are so much more! But that was a pretty fabulous list!!

Jekisa Jean said...

you forgot one:

a writer.


i loved this post by the way :)

Jekisa Jean said...

not amateur.
not. at. all.


georgia b. said...

tanks, jj.

Angela H. said...

best pictionary partner ever, too!

littlehouse said...

What an amazing list. We have lots in common :) Thanks for being brave enough for putting it out there.

Alicia said...

you are beautifully amazing and inspiring.

i hope you can find something to help you through your hard times, mentioned on your recent post. thinking about you. xoxoxo.