how mine does skip when i hear yours

dear baby-b,

today i went to check on you.

the doctor wanted to check on me... and you

{now that you are almost at sixteen weeks}.

but it was more for me than him that i went to see him.

you see, i had a pretty good idea everything was going well.

after all, i'm gaining weight.

my belly is ever-growing.

and you still have me feeling quite nauseous,

which is a good sign.

{oh, and don't think you're getting away with that little stunt.

we're gonna have words when you arrive!

just kidding!}

still, i sometimes rub my tummy

and wish that i could feel you kick this early on.

sometimes i just need peace of mind

that you are there and everything is okay.

well, today, the doctor put that funny little instrument

on that funny little bump that wasn't there just a few months ago

to have a listen.

it took a second or two.

i held my breath.

but then i heard it.

bum... bum... bum... bum... bum

like sweet music to my ears.

your tiny heart, beating rapidly... more rapidly than mine.

a happy sigh of relief.

a smile.

i need to hear from you now and then, you know.

i just need to be reminded that you're there.

thanks for letting me know.

you know, almost a year ago,

i took this photo, and i sent it out to you.

my longing for you to be was so great.

and my heart ached to have you.

i was wishing "you were here"

in my heart.

and now you are.

you are in my belly.

you are in my heart.

and your beating heart makes mine s k i p- a- b e a t.

can't wait to meet you, dear little one.

by then, the snow will be melted

and so will my heart.

~love,

mama-b