memorial day or labor day?

hoping you all have a blessed day

remembering the sacrifices made

by so many to defend and preserve freedom.

{it's rather warm here today... finally!

but warmth brings with it swollen hands and feet...

and heat waves that feel like heat exhaustion

to this mama who is less than three weeks from her due date...
even staying indoors away from the sun's beating rays.

remember when we were little and we all used to confuse

the two holidays that marked the beginning and end of summer...

memorial day and labor day?

well, maybe you never got them confused.

but i always did.

i could never remember which one was the last monday in may

and which one was the first monday in september.

well, ironically, today could be not just memorial day for me...

but labor day as well.

a different kind of labor day.

last night, i had a lot of contractions.

but they were feeling more like how labor contractions are described

than the way braxton hicks contractions are described...

like the ones i had last weekend.

even if today is not the day,

i KNOW i'm so very close.

i've been reading up on all the changes that will happen

to a mother's body as it gets ready for birth.

and they are all starting to occur.

i would not be one bit surprised if i go any day.

and yet i would not be surprised if it's still three weeks off.
and being my first pregnancy,
it's so difficult to know what's normal or typical
and what's the real deal or not.

either way, I'M READY!

sooooooo uncomfortable and miserable.

but so anticipatory and excited, too.
and given the history of my pregnancy...
even though i am in the clear to go through with a natural birth
instead of a c-section,
i'm still gun-shy about it all.
i'm prone to stay close to home where i can be cared for
by the doctors who have been following my pregnancy closely.

anyway, labor day or not,

i'm hoping to relax this memorial day

and do the couple last minute things

that absolutely need to be done before baby-b can come home.

i'm supposed to drive to the city to meet my sister's fiancé

and enjoy a barbeque with my family,

as well as take engagement photos of my sister on the beach.

but i'm seriously wondering if it's wise

to drive so far when i feel so close to labor.

though everything i'm feeling could be false labor signs,

i'd rather err on the side of caution

and remain close to home... just in case.

so, of course, i'm very torn as to what to do.

frustrated about the timing.

i guess only time will tell.

have a wonderful day, all.}