it's just how i see things

i was thinking today how i feel lost right now.

but then i found this quote by tolkien

while searching for a quote about being lost.

i liked the quote, and i think "wandering"

is a more accurate term for how i feel right now.

where i am (or am not) is partly due to my own choices

and partly due to circumstances that are beyond my control.

i have no idea what the future holds for me.

i've never felt this way in my life.

i'm afraid to say i feel directionless,

because i know what family and friends will say to that.

i'm afraid to say i have so many questions,

because i know what they will say to that, too.

i know where the answers are, as vague as they may be.

i'm just not looking for them.

i feel frozen.

stuck.

i'm not looking for sympathetic comments.

truly.

i'm just being honest.

i'm not looking for replies or answers from anyone.

i just needed to get this out.

i'm pretty sure every human being

has felt this way at some point in their life,

or will if they have not yet.

it's not a bad place to be.

it's okay to be here.

i just might learn something.